j'aime et j'espere --> i love and i hope

Saturday, July 2

shit i wrote a lot of sentimental crap and i got disconnected as i was saving it and now i think i'm going to swear.

:(

basically i was grumbling about everyone falling in love except me.

inclusive of anastasia, who got dimitri aka The Cute Guy With Floppy Hair.

watching that movie made me want to either: a. sing and dance around because love is beeeeeeyoutiful, or b. call someone to gush over the above, or c. cry because i just feel like doing it.

blame it on the hormones. by the way, chris, ever since you left months ago, my cycle's been outta whack. i think you've gotta come back, i can't plan swimming outings anymore :(

i realise i can blame everything on the hormones. a month ago i was grumbling about dying alone, unloved and single. but that can't be right since my cycle's a bit off. oh well. nevermind. i wish i could just calllll someone to talk but everyone's MIA. for some vaguely unknown reason.

i still have not started studying. *feels a bout of mild panic that does not accelerate into frantic studying* i think i'm so bored, i'll actually practice the song i'm playing in church tmr. i know, i know, i know i'm going to regret not studying. hell i go through this with every single paper, has it ever improved my self discipline?

okay. i must improve my self control. i will not snack tomorrow, and i will start studying at.. erh. 10 pm!! tonight!!!

and i will not sigh wistfully and dream of fairytale endings that obviously belong in fairytales, damnit! siti and serene claimed i'm so intimidating, i should just go with any guy who gathers enough guts to ask me out. i think i almost laughed my guts out, thinking about the one male loser who's ever dared to even hint at such, and the way i laughed in his face. serene and siti: apply that to yourselves please, not me. i'm on my way to being a nun. =D and i am not intimidating. even though apparently i scared bo xin with my 'there is no such word as a dateline and receipt committees do not exist' routine yesterday hahahha i didn't do it on purpose!! it just bothered me!

there i'm in a better mood already =D damn the hormones. here's a cute song. ' it's not just make believe'. from ella enchanted.

Hey yeah ohhh yeah ohh yeah yeah yeah

I thought that I was too old to believe in fairy tales
But there's a letter from you waitin' when I check my mail

I start to shakin' like a 7 on the Richter scale when you say you love me

Look in the mirror and I'm not who I used to be at all

It's coming clearer

I'm Cinderella at the ball
I'm Alice growing 10 feet tall
It's not just make believe

Here comes the prince's kiss,
I'm positive the slipper fits

It's not just make believe

It started out like just another ordinary day
Now suddenly my life is different in every way

The sun is brighter and the happiness is here to stay
It's like I'm dreaming

Thank you for showing me that true love doesn't hurt when you fall

You got me glowing

I'm Cinderella at the ball
I'm Alice growing 10 feet tall
It's not just make believe

It's finally happening, I feel so good I gotta sing
It's not just make believe

I'm Ariel above the sea,
I'm Beauty dancin' with the Beast
It's not just make believe

Here comes the prince's kiss
I'm positive the slipper fits

It's not just make believe

it must've been love.
8:22 pm

xoxo